Leoncio Almeida A Cain in the Paradise of Love

Leoncio Almeida a Cain in the Paradise of Love


Like Billy Joel says in one of his songs, I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints - The sinners are much more fun” That is why I defend the sinner, the devil , the incarnation of Evil Leoncio Almeida. As Joel’s song also says, “ would not leave you in your times of trouble. We never could have come this far. I took the good times, I'll take the bad times, I'll take you just the way you are.” That is the way that despite his apparent sexual advances Leoncio loves Isaura., He really loves her I would say that even more than "prince charming "alvaro. Leoncio suffers her disdain her indifference. He in his twisted way loves her the way she is and only wants her affection. He values her intelligence and purity. Alvaro in his magnanimous worldview decides that he will look down on the pretty slave and do her the favor of saving her. For Alvaro Isaura is not a companion she is only a trophy that he must obtain to satisfy his ego. Because he is so perfect, he decides her destiny. Sees her “loves” her and decides to be become her savior as he does with all the slaves . He helps the slaves to feed his ego. He likes the adulation and adoration he gets for being so "good" He loves that the masses marvel at his speeches at his "disinterested" actions. He kind to the point of hurting other's feelings as he did with Blanca yesterday. Self Centered Alvaro has it all figured out and he is too perfect and angelical he's unreal and righteous to me. In doing so much good he is an idealist and almost arrogant in his kindness. Alvaro will keep the girl by default because he is the " good guy" and that’s the way it has to be. However, for me Alvaro not so good and Leoncio is not so bad. In addition, if you ask me how loves Isaura more well its Leoncio because he never was given a chance to love her and because he suffers for it unlike Alvaro.I deep inside I would of liked for a character like leoncio to have a new oportunity to redeem himself to rule over sin with love I would of liked for Isaura to have been his new eve in paradise because he says he wants her body but what he really wanted was a companion a piece of heaven right . For me leoncio is Cain in paradise, but unlike Cain he was not given a chance for redemption by god/ Eve/ Isuara and this makes him fall to a precipice from which he cant get out. It is so tragic I feel empathy for our fallen angel-leoncio If only Isaura would of tried to see beyond the devil and would of seen the lonely man and could of understood his pain another story could of been told. In the real version of our story, Leoncio kills himself because he cannot live with the idea of Isaura not loving him. He understands that he must leave this world for her to be happy. That is his ultimate actof love and sacrifice In the new version he kidnaps her and later is killed but ( for rating purposes) before then he is able to tell Isaura how much he really loves her. Tells her how much she meant to him. How truly lonely he was and most importantly that he did not mean to hurt her in loving her and is somewhat able to redeem his soul.

Moore Isn't such a Sicko After All

I'm not saying that what comes out of Moore's is Gospel truth but he has valid points. Or at least thats what I think of controversial director Micheal Moore's Documentary or better said "mocumentary" 'Sicko". Much is the style of of Fahrenheit 9/11 he uses clips of President Bush and other notable politicians (even Democrats such as Hillary Clinton) to criticize and mock their inability to promote health care reform in the US. He bashes the government and corporate America for their lack of compassion and remorse in running the system the way they do. He also tells us as a Democracy to take action and not be afraid.

Another strong point in the documentary is that he uses real life people with real life medical system horror stories to illustrate his point They range from 9/11 hero's to a young cancer survivor and mother to a finger amputee who had to chose what finger he wanted to keep because he couldn't pay for example.He compares and contrasts the medical systems of Canada, Great Britain, France , and even our long time enemy Cuba to our own. These systems are very humane economical and patient friendly according to Moore.He also runs the American Medical system's reputation to the ground using congressional hearings footage and some infamous Nixon tapes in which according to him President Nixon cuts a deal with Kaiser Permanente to change the until the human American medical system to maximize profits.

He also says that part of the issue Many Americans are hopelessly in debt with student loans, huge bills, and extremely expensive drugs because of many inhumane capitalistic practices.

As an unemployed college graduate hopelessly in debt with student loans and as with a disability, that depends on SSI which is below the poverty level amount and I depend on medical for expensive and (I mean expensive medical equipment my power wheelchair cost 10, 000 bucks and my leg braces 1,000. ) I am also in danger of loosing medial if I start working which I want to do Moore's message somewhat resonates me. I also have a mother that is very ill and that has to go to Tijuana for a decent prognosis for her ailments because Kaiser will not approve her treatments I can attest to the veracity of many of Moore's claims. However, Moore even if he is insightful and entertains, he fails to provide solutions ( beside massive protests)to many of the problems he posses in his new film.

I just bombed my Test

I went blank. I went blank on tests of this type all semester. I don't do well with fill in the bank I am more a multiple choice essay person. With this quiz I was aiming to get a B. I will have to be happy with a C or C+ if it goes well. The only good think is that I don't ever have to show up to that class ever again. Yay ! I just hope I don't get a D

Freedom of Speech is Almost Dead in Venezuela S.O. S. !

This Sunday Venezuelan TV station Radio Caracas Television is going off the air this Sunday at midnight after 50 years of uninterrupted programming thanks to our "friend" Hugo Chavez. Their license really expires in the year 2020 but thanks to a law that Chavez himself invented he will unilaterally take them off the air for criticizing his undemocratic practices. One of its reporters was found dead yesterday. Their have been widespread protests throughout all major Venezuelan cities. However, Chavez has threatened with now longer allowing public protests. Yesterday reporters demonstrated with a giant banner that read "SOS" .

Radio Caracas Television is a public service television station and is one of the few opposition aligned stations left in the country. It is been famous for producing telenovelas (soap operas). Their last big soap opera hit was, " Mi Gorda Bella " ( My Pretty Fat Girl) now airing on Mexican TV station TV Azteca. Its success was almost as big as " Betty la Fea" ( Ugly Betty) and it chronicles the life of a heavyset girl that is able to win the heart of her platonic love, despite her seemingly, "ugly" appearance.

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I wish I were a Professonal TV Watcher

I wish I was a professional TV watcher Better said Telenovela watcher. Yes telenovela watcher. I've been watching too many lately instead of doing productive things. Destilando Amor. La fea mas bella, La hija del mariachi, Juan querendon, and now La esclava Isaura.

I sure envy those people that critique TV and movies for a living. What do you guys whish you were a professional at?

Excuse me that thing is not the Pope he is the Anti-Chirst

I hate Ratzinger or what ever his name is. He is a wolf in sheep's clothing Pope John Paul did many good and bad things. The worst thing he did is hand pick his successor. Many can say that it was the conclave that chose him and if you believe in Catholic dogma that it was the Holy Spirit. However I think he threatened the cardinals into choosing him when he gave the eulogy when the real pope died.

He is a watchdog of Catholic faith says the press. A theologian versed in many languages for the Church. For me he is evil, an inquisitor an Antichrist. Most of all a , "German Shepard" He sees that the the Catholic Church is falling apart and he doesn't to a thing about it. As a saying in Spanish goes, "He sees the Tempest and doesn't kneel."He doesn't have the charisma, respect or commitment his predecessor had for certain issues. He is also very boring and judgemental. How the hell (excuse the expression) does he want us to listen to him. All he does his is publish boring dictums and point fingers. Not even Harry Potters escapes his wrath.

He says that Mexican legislators are excommunicated for approving abortions in Mexico City before the first trimester. So what does this mean? According to Wikipedia, "Excommunication is a religious censure used to deprive or suspend membership in a religious community. " First he is meddling in a foreign county's international affairs. And not just any country it is a country that had a love affair with his predecessor. He is hindering these legislator's job. He is even causing some of them spiritual anguish. Excuse me but that's not very Christian.

Who is Mr Ratizinger to excommunicate? Didn't he hide many of the pedophilia cases that the Church is now infamous for? He called the Turkish people terrorists. Now what is he going to do have us burned at the stake? Doesn't he understand progress? He worries more about saying that there is no limbo or purgatory. He is writing a biography about Jesus Christ. I thought that he already had one its called the New Testament. Now we are free to think. Spanish philosopher Jose Savater is so right, "A Theocracy is not a Democracy."

Menstruation is no Funny Business Period !

Today I'm on my period and it hurts like hell. I don't know why guys think its so funny. I would like to see them put up with it just one day. My dad and brother crack jokes. Its almost a disabling condition. Some days it hurts so bad I roll on the floor in pain. I'm on nasty Iron pills, low dose progesterone pills prescribe by my gynecologist, I have to eat liver once a week and a black hococosh ( Think I spelt it more than wrong ) supplement that I got at Henry's.

When I'm on it I cant swim because I cant put on tampons because of my leg spasms. I bleed so profusely that I have to wear depend diapers and an overnight pad and a towel on my bed. I even had a sonogram for fibroids but I'm "ok". So what do I do now? I try to eat right, drink water, exercise and get my sleep. Am I doomed by my genes. You would think that doctors would of come up with a cure that (is not a hysterectomy I haven't had kids yet )to not be so in pain.

Two Mother's Days and a Funeral

Today is Mother's day in Mexico. Its always May 10th the date doesn't change like in the United States, Its also the first day without my grandmother and its hitting my mother hard even if she tries to hide it. Yesterday she visited her tomb, left her flowers and visited her house as well. I am worried. My mother says she is beginning to accept my grandmother's death. However she continues to wear black. She pretexts that its a promise she made to my grandmother to me it looks more like depression. Out of the blue she still gets sad, and she also constantly talks about things should of or would of done for my grandma but couldn't do. Its not that bad all the time I try to jokingly or involuntarily talk about the good things the happy times but it doesn't work. There are times I don't know how to talk to my mother anymore. I am afraid she will fall back into one of her depressive moods. She smiles all the time and pretends shes happy but I know her and she isn't. All this stress is also taking its tool. my mother has difficulty eating, her nerves are shot, and her allergies are rampant.

We as a family need counseling but with the inertia of life we haven't made time for it This situation makes it hard for my mother to keep her job and I am having the most difficult time finding a job, the last one I had if you could call it a job was a fiasco. due to my disability and most importantly my transportation issues I can't find one that would meet my needs and abilities. Sice my grandmother's Illness and later after her death we have been flat broke.And when I say flat I mean flat. Our side of the family picked up the costs and myy mom was the one that stood by her side and to care of her. My aunt and cousins instead of helping made our life miserable. By first not doing anything and later by lying and stealing To find an extra dollar in my purse made me so happy the other day.

Before I left I gave my mother her Mother's Day kiss and a hug. I was going to give her a card, but I woke up really late and it barley gave me enough time ti get dressed and ready for school and to talk to yet another social worker about my precarious work situation. As usual the social worker acted like one and gave me no solutions but yes a list of problems.

I will give my mother her card today and her bigger gift on Sunday. All I can do so far is be by her side and be strong. I'm glad that we didn't call Mother's Day off I will also continue to try o brighten my mother's days. I hope my brother doesn't forget to call her today or at least on Sunday. He left for college around the time my grandma became really ill and that made things worse. My bother even apologized for leaving. My mother being the loving person that she is understood but that didn't help her anemic state at all.

I will make the best of this Mother's Day. Enjoy her while you have her. To all of you despite it all ... Happy Mother's Day

Is Micheal Moore a ' Sicko'?

I was reading the front page of Yahoo this morning and I saw that Micheal Moore is being investigated for taking ailing 9/11 survivors and or workers I don't remember for getting treatment in Cuba. Also for claims he makes in his new movie " Sicko" I remembered two things: that a friend of mine got better physical therapy in Cuba than here her parents are wealthy and paid for the trip. And that yesterday my mom had to go to a doctor in Tijuana Mexico because her American HMO wouldn't treat her for certain respiratory ailments she has. My mom had to pay from her pocket for the doctor visit and it was worth it because the Mexican doctor said that she had problems with her nasal cavities. Can you imagine her HMO doctor her American doctor still was waiting for approval to treat her and could not figure out the cause of my mom's ailments.

You know it just makes you think yes Micheal Moore is kinda hokey but is he that wrong? Our Medical system, our education system and our system that provides work for people with disabilities needs reform and bad. It is kinda "sicko"

Why Sould they Pardon Paris?

I don't understand why Paris Hilton should be pardoned for driving drunk just for being famous. Why is she famous anyway? I strongly dislike the double standard there is with celebrities. They can mistreat their own children, adopt children as a "fad" a fashion trend. They can even molest children. And its all okay because they have money and are celebrities. I think it should be the opposite way if they are public figures they should always act with decor and misbehave they should be punished like the rest of us mortals

The "Rollo" is Over:(

It had a monologue skits and and most popular celebrity guests from Latin pop star Thalia To internationally renowned actor Viggo Mortensen. The soul of the show was Host Adal Ramones and the show was called Otro Rollo in English another roll or colloquial slang for another thing. Every week I on Saturdays I looked forward to the monologue, stunt of of the week or the skit or the week.
The show was so popular it became a part of Mexican and Latin American pop culture. It ran for 12 years. It was with me though some of my adolencense and difficult times. Now I don't know what to look forward to on Saturdays at 8pm on channel 12 it will be a hard habit to break. Now I dont have to argue with my dad about not changing the channel ha-ha.

I want a sequel !

How many of you guys think there should be a sequel? I do ! The other guy won because of technicalities. Oscar gave the fight and pulled in the money. I was also offended because the other guy wore my flag as underwear on a national holiday. He didn't even bother to put the Charro hat on right. I understand that in boxing there is show by that was just the worst. Very tacky and not creative at all. He would not like to be offended for being African American right?

People with disabilities are good business... Really I mean it !

"Why blogging helps me overcome my disability" would probably struggle to attract a large readership or generate much in the way of advertising revenue...

I was told this by a rival blogging company. I thought I was "free" to suggest topics that I wanted to write about. I naively contacted this company because I wanted to generate as much AdSense revenue as possible. But I was wrong. my bad but don't worry. I gave them a piece of my mind.
I told them that even if people with disabilities are considered a niche based market we do have buying power. That I was interested in products that their site had to offer, but that focusing on people with disabilities would generate a new type of readership and revenue. That I did not have the statistics at the moment to prove my case. But to please feel free to have their experts contact me on why not . That I was perhaps jumping to conclusions but that it was their loss.

Why are we ignored by the mainstream media. They have such a perverse notion of beauty. It will take a long time for it to change. At least little old me won't keep quiet. I would not write for that other company for more money even if they begged me.

I don't know what to do with all this baggage.

thought I had it all figured out. I went to college. I was a good student a hard worker. But ever sense I finished college. I haven't had a real job. I have to set goals to comply with a social worker but most importantly to get a job where I'm happy at. A job that I can earn good money life without regrets and actually enjoy. I don't want spend the rest of my life stuck living in the past and thinking about what I could of done. I don't want to become bitter like my parents. My dad especially. But I don't know what talents I have or what I'm good at. I've studied, philosophy, political science, journalism, and business but I don't know what to do with all this baggage.

My disability, transportation issues are such burdens for me. I have to think what I want to do and how. I want to be successful really I do. I dot want to give up. I wish I had an oracle like the Greeks did to guide me.

Oh Cuba the Beautiful!

"Cuba should open up to the world and the world to Cuba.” , said a hopeful Pope John Paul II during his first and only visit to Cuba in 1999. However, nothing happened. The man that once inspired his own people to fight Communism in solidarity could not help the Cuban cause. I sure wish he did. Not even the press was interested then, they all flocked to cover the Clinton Impeachment trial. That was “historical”.
Poor Cuba, it’s the dictatorial domain of Fidel Castro. Because of his pigheadedness Cuba is still stuck in a black whole of space and time. I was watching a special edition of California’s Gold with host Hewell Houser. It was a charming show but from what Mr. Houser reported, people in Cuba seem stuck in a time warp better said. They drive cars from the 1950’s 60’s maybe 70’s. They depend on their own creativity to wash their clothes, shop, eat out and watch pirated TV from Spanish speaking stations in Miami. To go to Cuba is to memories, “El Che”. In Cuba he hasn’t died you know. In Cuba you can visit the path that inspired Hemingway to write. One can swim in the famous or for many Americans the “infamous” Bay of Pigs. One can play ball without a bat. But is this freedom?
I’m sorry Fidel but history won’t absolve you. You not only repressed your people and sabotaged your own revolution. You took your people’s chances away, most importantly, a chance to be free and live a real democratic revolution. Fidel unilaterally took the Cuban’ people chance to think for themselves to evolve as a nation and a culture. Nor will it absolve the United States that now in this new post Cold War order has done nothing substantial to lift embargoes. Bush has promised he will help the Cubans reach their freedom. However with the antecedents of the war in Iraq and Afghanistan will this be another fiasco? Let’s not forget that when Fidel dies Cuba is also at the mercy of Hugo Chavez. With his leftist caudillo mentality, finger pointing antics, foul mouth and petro-dollars. Oh poor Cuba! When will you once again be, “Cubita la bella !“ (Little Cuba the Beautiful)

That man is mine!

What ever happened to getting married for just for love and without publicity?Today is Mexican Pop singer Paulina Rubio's Wedding. I cant help but remember her song, "Ese hombre es mio" " That man is mine in English.

I don't doubt that she loves her boyfriend but her wedding looks more like a movie premiere than a wedding. Trucks of flowers tons of food. I guess celebrities get married so lavishly because they can but what ever happen to " All you need is love"? Are they going to donate any of the leftover food to charity?

I dunno I just think that the entertainment business concept of getting married is over the top. They get married too lavishly its almost sinful. And they get married and divorced so many times it isn't even funny. Also the press and the paparazzi have a field day with these kind of weddings. Its good that celebrities want to share to some degree their intimate lives with fans, but at what price? They are selling to the best offer a moment that is suppose to be priceless.

I like Paulina as a singer and everything but OMG I just could not believe how some people can waste money. When there are so many poor people out there.

I will let you guys know ( for those of you might have a mild interest) just how lavish the wedding got. It was on Spanish speaking news not just gossip shows

Dust punched me out!!!!!!!

I hate my allergies. I tried home remedies. Doctor prescribed medications. Resting Drinking water.

Nothing. I cant get rid of the pain. The pressure. The headache.

My doctor wont treat it unless we try all other options.

Our American Medical system needs to improve.

I can't believe I learned more about how to cure my allergies from a pharmacist in Tijuanathan my own Doctor!

Why? Are we not the most powerful country in the world?

I feel so much better

On Friday I let something off my chest that was seriously bothering me. Before then I felt like I was part of something unethical bad. But now I got help most of all told the truth and feel better about myself.

I cant talk about it here yet I at not at that point yet but I feel so much better now. What I learned from the experience is that when things are too good to be true they are not . Also to never go against my principles or lie to myself. To be good to be kind and never directly or indirectly hurt anyone. Also that in life there are no short cuts no miracle jobs or magical solutions, only hard work and honesty like I was taught by my mother.

Also that I have to learn to fend for myself no one will do it for me.

Do you believe in Premonitions?

The other day I saw the movie Premonition starring Sandra Bullock. I have never had premonitions of anything what so ever or so I think. After watching the movie., I do think however that my mother had premonitions of my grandmother’s death. We were expecting it she had been very ill and frail for two years. It was a very painful process for me but especially my mother.


A week before my grandmother died my mother woke up franticly one day and looked for dark clothing for her and for me because as she said in her own words, “ We were going to need it soon.”


She set five days aside in her calendar for my grandmother beforehand for no apparent reason. Those five days coincided with the date of her death, funeral and later burial.

I was very shocked and surprised by the coincidences in the movie with our life. . My mother’s premonitions and dreams are not as exact and theatrical as presented in the move but valid.

I guess the lesson we can learn from a movie like Premonition is that we have to accept death and suffering as part of the miracle of living. Also that we have to cherish people and tell them we love them when they are alive.

I have no regrets. I showed my grandmother my love and affection in many ways. For now, all I have are memories. Memories that for the most part were good and funny things (because my grandma was funny) and find solace in her passing. I can keep her alive in my memories but I have to learn to live without her.

PS: By the way, Premonition is a great movie hope Sandra Bullock is nominated for many awards.

Shirley Temple: The Greatest Childstar of all Times

I was just reading that biography about her. It had the most wonderful pictures and anecdotes. It reminded me of when I saw her at the front row of the 100th rose parade when I was 10 years old.

I bugged my mom so much to take me. I wanted to see Shirley Temple. But I was so disappointed I knew it wasn't logical to think like this, but I got so mad when I saw the "old" lady on the float, another lady and I yelled, "That isn't Shirley Temple!"


I wonder why childstars never grow up in our mind. For us Latinos , " la tucita" who worked with Pedro Infante and Julian "Juliancito" Bravo (the Mexican equivalent of Shirley Temple for his cute allure and acting skills ) are points of reference. My favorite child actor was Juliancito he played roles that ranged from the version in Spanish of Huckleberry Finn to a movie about a boy that almost died, because he did an unthinkable amount of things to pay for his First Communion because his family was too poor.

"la Tucita" I cant recall her real name right this moment never regained the same popularity she had in her childhood years. Julian made many movies as a teenager and young adult. He also has worked in the Mexican Telenovela industry now in his later years, but never with the same success.

Why do we many times, as a society reduce child stars to "has beens" ?

They are still talented people and they did have to grow up some day.

What does it take to be a blogging 'Celebrity'?

I have never had a featured post on this site, does that mean I am a bad writer? Am I boring?

What is the system? Do we have to answer to all the posts we like? Do we have to post every single day? Or do our posts have to be only when we feel like it or meaningful?

I have noticed that the posts that I work really hard on do not get noticed and the ones that are a bit more impromptu get more comments. Not as many as other posts I've seen but more.

To be a good blogger does one have to be focused or more relaxed? Is there a blogging writing style that I haven't learned yet. I bet there is a knack to it. For now I feel like a blogging looser ha-ha.

I have a second life account but I cant use it yet

I saw a story on the Mexican show punto de partida with Denise mercer about a virtual reality game called second life but my computer is too old to support it. It just seemed so cute.

Have any of you ever cried over the death of a celebrity?

I Have. I cried when Mexican game show host and comedian Paco Staley died 7 yrs ago. I also cried when Mexican comedian Mario Moreno Cantinflas died. I thought I was going to cry when Pope John Paul died two years ago but no. I guess I didn't because we were able to see how he suffered on TV and it was his time to go in peace. as a good actor he know how to live his life in front of the cameras and relate to his audience. Perhaps thats why we feel so attached to celebrities and public figures at times not only because they live their lives and share their talents with us, but because they remind us of times in our lives.

Like the phrase where were you when Kennedy got shot? When John Leonon died?

What is the secret to being a good blogger?

I hardly get any comments. I guess its a question of devotion and getting the knack of it. Any advice?